Day 12: Standing Up and Doing What is Best

I was chatting with someone earlier through messages and I realize that they are facing many points that I had to face in terms of taking responsibility in standing up and and as themselves in the system by distributing TechnoTutor to support equal education for all, where we can then go into politics and implement equal money for all, to support all life equally and "fuck the ego in one go" as Bernard said.

Here is some self-forgiveness for you-all who are facing this same point:

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that sales is evil.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear pushing my limits of communication where I can sell something to someone where I can support them to become the best version of themselves as I grow and change by supporting another, where I see myself in them, where I started, and in turn receive benefit myself as well, and get paid for it too, as I benefit the other.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that no one will listen to me, I am weak, and I cannot convey the message of TechnoTutor, an effective education, and what is best for all life to other people. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see how I will become far better than I can ever imagine in my mind when I start pushing myself, challenging myself to grow change and support others, where I then for the first time for real in my life give as I wish to receive, and become equal to the principles of Desteni, and stand as the example within myself, where all areas of my life in turn get better, and become the best they can be. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see how all of the problems I am facing in my world and my life are because of one reason, not acting in accordance within principles, and by committing my life to the greatest purpose I can possibly imagine, changing the system, in education, providing equal money to all, and changing the laws to support everyone to have their basic needs met - through that, my relationships with my family, my partner, and everyone and everything WILL become what is BEST as a result of me stand for what is real for the first time and being steadfast within that which is best for all life. I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to see that, how my own self interest is cause unnecessary problems within my life, where my partner and those who are close to me, seem to be possessed demons from another realm, where when and as I go to speak the truth, they react, don't listen to me, and as a matter of fact shame me and shit on me for trying to consider "What would actually be supportive and good for everyone", because they can see, feel, realize and understand my actions are not in line with my words, and therefore really just calling me out on my bullshit indirectly and also because they themselves simply are not yet willing to be self-honest and don't know how to actually change. Where in reality this is an accumulated consequence of me not wanting to change for years and years and years, compounding the system of my mind, where I have locked in tons of patterns that I must walk myself through, and the other person is really just a reflection of me, a part of me that I have accepted and allowed, that I have not yet fully forgiven, "REAL-ized", and re-SOLVED through self-correction.