Day 8: Things Aren’t Moving Fast Enough!

 

I have felt like I have been in a stuck pattern for a few months now. Although things around me are moving and happening, within my self-honesty I have notice I am NOT moving myself equal to the speed I am capable of performing at with constancy, consistency and sustainability. Within this moment if I were to die, I would feel regret, as right now in my life, I am trying to rush everyone and everything else, but am not fulfilling my personal responsibility within my role in my life by not do everything I can possibly do to make myself better, and make the world a better place.

I have come to a strong realization through speaking with those close to me, that my own objection is the one I’ll keep getting. Or said in other words ‘the objection I keep getting, is the one I have’.

Now I am in the place and position to do, do and do; live, live and live, be here, and trust, as I now don’t live with anyone, I don’t work anymore at the laundry business I used to own having sold it a couple of months ago, and now is go time. No one to take care of, no one to cater for, but myself. Instead of this being a punishment, it should be a freedom to explore right now. A freedom to see, who I really am, what I can accomplish, and how many fears, limitations, and challenges can I overcome and walk through in this period of time, which will NOT last forever, or very long at all.

I have been waiting on a few big things to come through, mainly 3 that come to mind. Firstly, my partners travel visa application to get approved. Secondly, a huge amount of money to come through for a deal that was done. And thirdly, a remortgage to pull through as well.

And really the biggest thing that “I am waiting on” is My-Self to build my business effectively and consistently. All of the other stuff is really of no concern with this one point being solved, because they all will revolve around this one point of how effective I am and can become. I also just realized that these other things are all just distractions to focus on as they are beyond my control at this point, I’ve done everything I can do.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become impatient thinking “Things aren’t moving fast enough”, within that phrase blaming the world, outside reality, and others for things not moving fast enough in my life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear things not moving as fast as I would like and imagine in my mind, where I have set myself up for failure by projecting how reality should line up with my personal self-interest not realizing that things take time to manifest in physical reality, and that it is important and best to consider all in each move, decision and project.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame others, as well as blame myself for the results and consequences I am experiencing now vs stepping up within myself and stepping out to walk through and correct and change what caused all of this in the first place.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see how ‘I Am Not Moving Fast Enough’, and therefore projecting that onto reality thinking ‘these things, people, situations are not moving fast enough’, knowing that as I am moving at the speed of the physical, or breath, I wouldn’t not feel that way, as I am present Here while moving with and through breath.

I commit myself to using breath to equalizing the connection of Me to reality, what is Here.