Day 1: Cheapskate

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be a cheapskate.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be a stingy person when it comes to buying things.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as less than for being cheap.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge others for being cheap.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want things for free.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have taken free coffees from the OCC. Within that, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel guilty about taking coffees from and making coffee at the OCC.

I forgive that I have accepted and allowed to go way out of my way to get things for free.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to expect people to give me things and money for free, for having done no work or effort and not providing any value.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see how I have become a freeloader living off of other people’s efforts and not taking personal responsibility for myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to shy away from buying a new phone because I don’t want to spend the money on it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not buy a newer vehicle because I am afraid to spend money, when my current vehicle is past due.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand the fact that if I am not willing to invest in myself, others will not be willing to invest in me; and that others will not see how they can invest and better themselves through my words if I am not following through with my actions as the example.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame society and the world for me being cheap.

I realize that this program of being cheap has come much from my parents.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to copy the program of being cheap from my mom and dad.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have hurt my bank account by being cheap.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to be cheap so bad that it actually costs me more money in the long run. One example is when I bought a van – my second van – for $2,000 and I got dad and trusted him to do a patch job on the van where fluid was leaking, even though we knew it would have been best to fully replace “the hose”. The van gave out on the first day driving west from Ottawa, and we all got stuck and had to walk to turf the next day or two. My parents had to drive up from Ottawa to Port Hope, which says on Google takes 3 hours and 24 minutes, to drop off a vehicle for us and then they drove home.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be cheap with the Mazda van, have it break down immediately, and then have to buy a new van.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to waste money on cheap products that don’t last.

I forgive my mom for teaching me to be cheap.

I forgive my dad for teaching me to be cheap.

I forgive my parents for teaching me to value cheap costs over product value.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to value cheap costs rather than product value.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have copied that program from my mom and dad of valuing cheap costs over actual product value.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have stuck with X because of his cheap fees for real estate.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be so stuck in my ways that I cannot see the value of something if it is expensive to me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see how by me being cheap, I am ‘cheaping’ myself out of life in many ways selling myself short and losing out on my full potential in life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to take the opposite polarity approach of wanting to feel like and be a big spender, a big player, to the point where I would waste huge amounts of money on stupid things.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to suppress my desire to spend so much that randomly I burst out like a floating ball that one pushes under water, and that pops out from under the surface and make a huge or unnecessary irregular purchase that is irrational.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have gone out of my way to hotels just to drink their free coffee so I don’t have to use/make my own and don’t have to pay for it from somewhere else.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to play the shopping game to the point where I am actually eventually buying an inferior product that doesn’t fully serve my needs and because of that I am able to express myself less than if my needs in that category were fully met.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to try and discipline myself in spending like I am a stupid child who doesn’t understand the basics of money.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not follow the guidelines I set for myself with money, that has led me to a position where I feel I need to be cheap.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel ashamed and guilty about being cheap.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel embarrassed about looking for cheaper prices, or doing anything that could be called cheap.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be afraid of being called or being looked at as a cheap person, with cheap habits.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have remembered and have this memory of my parents always trying to be as cheap as possible and thinking that this is the best way to survive. And within that, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to always try to be as cheap as possible even if it takes away from the value and effect of what I am spending my money on would have.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as a saver, just like how my mom and dad always told me I was a money man and a saver when it comes to money, that I push that so far to identifying myself in relation to my entire life as a saver, the money man, and that leading into me being cheap with purchases, and being a cheap person not investing in himself wisely.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use the character of a saver and being good with money to justify being overly cheap when it comes to wanting to spend or spending money.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as the money man.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as quiet.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as skinny.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as a saver.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as a saviour.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as a saver, and a saviour when it comes to money.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to horde money in the fear of losing it all, or losing it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to “save” my money as if I am trying to save it and keep it safe from someone, or something, or the word system itself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that I am in reality better than someone else if I get a cheaper or better deal price wise, because I saved money and they paid more than I did.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to play the cheap guy when I just don’t want to buy anything or spend money.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to “just not want to spend money” even though there is great value for what I can be paying for.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see the money I have or own as “my money” only and not see that all money in existence will be circulated, and if it is not, there was no real value for that money anyway because there was nothing it was used for or nothing was purchased from it. The only value that money exists for is of use, and use gives it value.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live in the illusion of money – that money rules everything and has control over me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live by the term “save for a rainy day”, expecting that something terrible is going to happen to me or a loved one close to me, and be saving out of constant fear that this money will leave me eventually anyway due to a disaster in my life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand the consequences relating to my relationship with money as me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to play the polarities of cheap and expensive, rather than just look at what it is that I’d like or need to be done, and realize there’s a cost to everything in this world whether I see it or not.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be trying to haggle people to the point where I lose self-respect and they lose respect for me also.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to lose respect instantly for the person who tries to be cheap or haggles.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see myself as a poor man, a poor person, when I try to haggle, bargain, or get a better price or rate.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not push for a better price or rate because of my fear of looking like a haggler or a cheap person, or cheap business man.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to deny the value of negotiating, haggling, and bargaining because I was too afraid of being or looking cheap.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be cheap in the areas that are most important in life, like my communication with myself and others, human interaction, presenting TechnoTutor, selling, in business, in relationships and other areas that are irreplaceable like life itself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to buy things just because they are cheap or are on sale, even though I don’t need it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be impulse by cheap things, cheap prices, and cheap prices for normally expensive things.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not buy something at a really good price that I needed because it felt too cheap, or I was just being overly cheap myself, and ended up paying more than I had to for it later on, or missing out completely.

I commit myself to letting go of the need to be cheap.

I commit myself to letting go of the need to get a good deal, good prices, and feel special by doing so.

I commit myself to stopping this program of being cheap, and overly cheap, and when it comes up in life, breathe, silence the backchat by forgiving myself, look at what is real and what is best, and act within and on that principle.

I commit myself to creating myself as a balance within the word “cheap”.

cheap

adjective

adjective: cheap; comparative adjective: cheaper; superlative adjective: cheapest

1.      (of an item for sale) low in price; worth more than its cost.

"they bought some cheap fruit"

·         charging low prices.

"a cheap restaurant"

·         inexpensive because of inferior quality.

"cheap, shoddy goods"

·         INFORMAL•NORTH AMERICAN

miserly; stingy.

"she's too cheap to send me a postcard"

·         of little worth because achieved in a discreditable way requiring little effort.

"her moment of cheap triumph"

·         deserving of contempt.

"a cheap trick"

adverb

adverb: cheap

1.      at or for a low price.

"a house that was going cheap"

I commit myself to lifting the cheap price I put on Life and our world/world system has put on Life.

I commit myself to seeing and establishing TechnoTutor in my mind as a cheap product in the sense that it is a much lower cost than the real value it is and provides.

I commit myself to not selling myself short and cheaply.

I commit myself to eliminating my cheap mindset when it comes to building myself and building my life.

I commit myself to growing out of my cheapness because I realize I cannot become super successful and stay cheap.

I commit myself to growing out of any cheapness that holds me back from process.

I commit myself to equalizing the money system, education, health care, food, water, shelter and all basic needs to the point where all necessities seem cheap to any and every one, making Life affordable for all. And not cheap in value, but affordability.

I commit myself to changing myself as the problems I see in this world because all outside of me exist within, equal and/as one.